Like a thousand weights on your chest… maybe not a thousand exactly.

HOLY COW TIME FLIES! I can’t believe how fast this season has sped by and things which seemed like I had months to do are now all piling up! Vaccinations, insurance forms, even deciding what I’m taking with me and what’s being left here or donated is all needing time that I don’t feel like I have enough of. Mix all that in with the busyness of the holidays and I can only guess this December will be going even more quickly.

 

I’m not sure if it’s because of all this stuff I have left to do but I’ve been feeling quite burdened the last couple of weeks. I can’t say that it’s any one particular thing although of course some weigh a wee bit more heavily than others. It’s just the combinations of things in life that added up seem to feel like a thousand weights just hanging out on my chest. I’ve been trying to keep on top of all my obligations and commitments to work and friends but I’ve had to bail on some of them and been pretty hard on myself as a result. I was taught once that whatever you’re doing, even if you’re over qualified or it serves you no purpose, to do it well and I really take that advice to heart. Obviously sometimes I don’t take my own advice and I feel that’s true in my preparations for this mission. January just seemed so far away and I had loads of time that I’ll be the first to admit I got a bit… procrastinate-y. And so here I am hoping that all my funds will be raised (and I’m pretty far off 😦 ) and my papers will be in order but I am worried that it won’t happen and my departure will be delayed. If you are thinking about supporting me check out the http://www.aimint.org/can page. All funds and pledges have to be in before December 15!

 

Which then leads me to a more hopeful thought and the immense encouragement that I’ve felt from people so far. Man I have generous friends and family!!!! I’m so thankful that God’s blessed me with these people and it really does wonders for the spirit. I would not be able to do this without you! ❤ Which reminds me that anxiety and the desire to control everything can be indicative of not FROGging (fully relying on God for all you 90s youth kids) and entirely trusting Him to be sovereign in your life. So this week I’m working on releasing that anxiety, doing the best I can with the abilities I am gifted with and desiring His will and not my control.

 

Love you guys and working on writing more frequently.

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